It has been a looong field experience this semester in preschool. It has been challenging in so many ways. Although my teachers advise us to look at our experience now to see what we wouldn’t do in our classroom, I still feel negatively about my experience.
I went in with such high hopes and eagerly wanted to jump in and get guidance from my teacher to improve myself. Unfortunately, this program was not what I expected. I knew that I would be working with a lower-income program and our teachers warned us that the quality level would be quite different but I still was very shocked and depressed!
For now, I’m cruising through my experiences with a bitter mindset in the background. It is hard to be somewhere several days a week and not be able to really change anything. We are guests and here to learn. However, I sometimes feel that I am picking up bad habits and resorting to lazy efforts in the classroom. When I reflect on this, it really upsets me because I feel that I am going backwards in my progression to becoming a better teacher.
Some depressing thoughts for the day, I know. I’ve been neglecting my blog as I’ve been working my way through a difficult semester.